The Point of It All

I don't want to be someone who rides the middle,
i want to rise above it
i wanna be better
i wanna soar
i wanna fucking fly
thats why i chose to jump out of a plane on my 29th birthday
I wanted to do something stupid and dangerous just for the hell of it
Just to say I did it
I lived in that moment
i stared down from the doorway
seeing the world for what it is
small and fragile
and little
in the grand scheme of things
but strong
in what it stands for
In what it encompasses
In what it means
to be apart of it
its important

You are important

your imprint
your story
who you are
where you been
where you're going
what you wanna be
and what you wanna do

it all matters

and i wanna be a person that matters
a person of matter
because i care about those things that we all say matter
like love
like people
we build churches and steeples
to get on our knees and pray to a god
that doesn't help us sometimes
cause
it seems like he's not listening
but still we keep on going
we still keep on grinding
growing
climbing higher
to be bigger
and better

so who am i if i'm not trying to be the best of me
fuck riding the middle
i wanna be on the top
i wanna be the creme _____of the muthafucking crop
i wanna keep on rising
and bubbling
and turn shit up
until we pop!
and explode
because do you know what happens when volcanoes explode?
they make new islands
and sometimes those islands are shaped like snoopy
this shit is a true story
there is an island shaped like snoopy
newly formed from a volcano that just exploded and created new land
that wasn't there before
it wasn't there before

I wasn't there before
But my soul has been here before

and i am here now
And I've figured it out

the point of it all is to create things that last


And the point of it all..
And the point of it all..
Is I love you
I do this shit cause i love it
because i love you
because i love me
and i know that there's so much more that i could be
then what people expect
of me
There are those that swear they know who the fuck i am
on the daily
i commit myself to not giving a damn about their opinion
who they claim to be
what they say i am
cause i am
jesanschez
a woman with no real place to stay but a home that i carry in my heart
every
fucking
day
and i am making shit
that lasts

-JSC 2014