'julio'

i admit
i'm not here
non-compliant with life
i'm stuck on the memory of a love meant to last a lifetime
i play pretend in reality
acting as if everything is just fine
but really i'm losing my mind
on a slow drift to insanity

i have empty affairs to fill the void you left
pretty faces that don't mean much to me
i build them promises of sand castles
as they
bask in my hollow embrace
i sometimes see you staring back in their faces
of momentary love
the next day its always the same
washing them away with the soap on the same brown skin you once laid kisses
reminiscing,
i watch them fade through the drain with the hope i can love again
the same way i once loved you.

Love & Light,

C. Joi Sanchez
www.jsanschez.wordpress com